Frustrations

To say I am frustrated is an understatement. I'm so glad that I have my husband to bring me down and helps me stay grounded. He is definitely nothing short of amazing! My frustration is with parents. Yes, I am a parent. Yes, I'm guilty of failing sometimes. I'm just appalled at how some parents treat their children. I'm know that we, as parents, don't always do the right things. I am PAINFULLY aware of that. I just don't understand how a parent that has 2 or more children can look at one child and be ecstatic at how happy that child is and look at their other children and brush them off like they don't even exist because they don't agree with that child's decisions.

I had a whole rant typed up and then decided to delete it. I'm sure that no one really cares to hear my opinion, and that's okay. I know everyone doesn't agree with me. My biggest question is, "Is it okay to acknowledge one child because of their happiness, but completely disregard another child when they are equally or even more happy?"

Anyways, I have a ton of homework to do, and even more packing and laundry and cleaning...I'm sure blogging isn't the best use of my time right now =)

Anew...

Well, it has been a while since I have blogged. I decided that since I am posting for the first time in a year, I would start fresh. New look. New title. New news.

Do we have any new news? Not really. We are just living life and loving God!

We are moving soon, to another rental. We are blessed that our landlords have a bigger house available, and they offered it to us before anyone else. It is in a better city with better schools and closer to everything we love. I told my husband that I can't get very far from a Wal-Mart or Target, and we will have both within 4 miles! Now, I just have to get to packing.

I am almost done with school!! Yay!!! I will finish school in September and have my degree in Early Childhood Education. Will I use my degree? Probably not right away. I enjoy staying at home with my kiddos! If an opportunity arises for me to go back to work, I might take it. We'll see.

Other than that, life is amazing. Kids are growing. It is hard to believe that Snowball will be 1 in less than 2 months! It just stinks that we can't have a big celebration for him like we did the others, based on the fact that getting our families to be civil and in the same place at the same time is IMPOSSIBLE!! I don't want to deal with the stress. We will just have our own party and he will enjoy it!

I will leave you today with a picture. Isn't the resemblance uncanny?? (Poor picture quality, it comes from my husband's cell phone)

March??

Well, it is March!! That means that nicer weather will be here soon, right?? I sure hope so! Since March is now here, that means that my itty bitty baby boy (well, maybe not a baby) is going to be 4 soon!!! I can't believe it!! He is such an awesome little boy! He gets to start in Bible Blast at church and won't be in the nursery! I can't believe it!! March also puts me one month closer to meeting our new baby boy! Almost 4 months left. I can't believe that either! As I am sitting here writing this, this little boy is kicking and moving like crazy!

I have started feeling better. I can eat now, and I am gaining weight. Right now I am in the middle of a respiratory thing and have been pretty sick, but I am getting better now!

Our life is just amazing right now! I couldn't ask for anything more but my husband and kids by my side! Things may get crazy at times, but they make everything worthwhile!

I really don't have much more to share. I should probably be catching up on my housework that I have let slide since I have been sick, but I really don't want to right now. Anyways, have a nice day!

A New year, a New me??

Well, things this past week have been stressful, to say the least. I went to the dr and had lost even more weight (9lbs in a month) and so he told me that he wanted to see me in 2 weeks and if I hadn't gained any weight, he would put me in the hospital. Well, that scared me to death. I don't want to go in the hospital until I have the baby! I have been trying to eat as much as possible, and up until yesterday, I was still losing weight . I lost about 5 more lbs this past week, and then I weighed today and I had gained 1.5 lbs!! So exciting. I never thought I would get excited about gaining weight, but I am!!! I don't want a hospital stay.

I do believe my stress level has been part of the reason I can't gain weight. This weekend, I didn't have any stress, we had a relaxing weekend just spending time with the kids. However, today the stress is back, I am trying my hardest to not let things bother me, but I take everything to heart and I am finding that very difficult. However, today, a verse my pastor used came to mind and it was "Make every effort to live in peace with all men and to be holy, without holiness no one will see the Lord." Hebrews 12:14. So, today when something has come up that just really frustrated me and I wanted to yell, scream, say mean things, and get revenge, I have thought of this verse and it has calmed me down and I have held my tongue so I wouldn't say anything that would hurt anyone or make anyone think badly of me. It isn't that I want to please everyone, but I want to please God, God wants me to be holy and He wants me to set an example of what a Christian is. So, here's to a new me..I am still the same person, but I am chosing to watch what I say and do around others. I might still get mad about something and rant and rave about it at home, but hopefully by chosing to not get mad in "public" or say something that would hurt someone, hopefully they will see that there is a God out there and He is the only way to true happiness. Make sense?? It sure does in my mind.

So, we are all doing alright around here, no major sicknesses or anything...and we also found out the gender of our baby.......it's a BOY!!!! we are very excited!!!

Happy New Year

Well, I'm pretty optimistic that this year will hold alot in store. I am also optimistic that we will have some pretty fantastic moments. 2009 went out and I was so glad to see this year pass. We had some pretty trying times this past year, and all I can say is it can only get better from here. I am very happy to forget most all that happened in 2009 and try to keep that junk from happening this year.

Some exciting things are going to happen this year, I'm not sure what order everything will happen in, but I am positive on one thing...we will be welcoming Baby Buckner #4 into our family in July! We are so excited to not only welcome this child into our lives, but we are very honored that God chose us to be parents once more!!

I know some people aren't thrilled at the fact that we are having ANOTHER baby, but you know what? I DON'T CARE. It is not your life, you don't have to raise the child, you don't have to provide for the child, you don't have to have anything to do with the child if you don't want. I won't lose any sleep over it. I am the one chosen to raise this child and I couldn't be more thrilled!

Anyways, I have made a few new years resolutions, nothing HUGE, like losing weight or anything like that, because, well, being pregnant is not the best time to lose weight.

Well, life right now is pretty great. We enjoy spending time together just us as a family. If we aren't at home together, we are usually at church. There isn't any place we would rather be. I am very excited to raise another child to love the Lord as much as we do! We have a great church home and have made some of the greatest friends along the way. I know that God is working in us each and every day and couldn't be any happier. We recently took the kids to the Salvation Army for the Children's Department mission of Feeding the homeless. Yes, the roads were terrible, but we ventured out at 5AM and as an adult, I have never seen anything quite like it. Walking into the Salvation army it was person upon person trying to stay warm from the cold. We got to set everything up to welcome the homeless for a hot meal. We involved the kids any way we could. They got to see first hand, mommy and daddy helping others. The kids absolutely loved it. They loved helping others and them being there was a blessing to others because they were able to see that so many people care for them when they feel like they have nothing.

Anyways, We still have clean up to do from the holidays. School starts back up tomorrow. I better start getting everything together!

Updates..

Well, blogging has definitely taken a backseat to, well, life. We are staying pretty busy these days. Addison is still loving school, I just wish that I didn't have to walk her in everyday because these mornings are getting pretty chilly. I know that soon she won't want me to walk her in, so I do cherish our walks.

The kids have been practicing for their Christmas play at church. They do love our church!

The husband is back in school. I am very proud of him for going back (again) and pursuing something that makes him happy. I am even loving typing up his homework for him =) I actually get to do something "adult" for a bit. I spend the majority of my time taking care of the kids and house, that taking time out to help my husband is very rewarding. He is pursing a BS in Ministry and Leadership. Where God's road may take us, I don't know, but we are looking forward to the journey.

Umm...Not much else is new. The kiddos are enjoying life, we are enjoying life...nothing too exciting!

I hope everyone had a safe and Happy Halloween! I know we sure did!!

Diapers???

What a title to a post. Diapers. What does that have to do with anything? Well, I have discovered a new favorite diaper. With only 1 left in diapers, it is a little too late, but oh well. Usually I use the Babies r us brand Especially for Baby...They are very durable and don't leak. A big plus, they are soo inexpensive. Well, a sweet lady at church on Sunday brought me a coupon for the Target brand diapers, so we got some. I think they are very comparable to the Especially for Baby brand. I have not had any problems with them at all. I found a few stray Pampers around the house and used those a few days, and I will never do that again. Kamryn woke up every day, soaking wet with the gel falling out of the diaper. Not fun. So, Babies r us or Target? Target is closer, I will probably stick with those until Kamryn is potty trained..which will most likely be a while, because, face it..Kids these days are rarely potty trained by age 2. Anyways...that's it on diapers.

Life right now is wonderful. I love my husband dearly. He amazes me every day! Oh yeah, he irritates me every day too. Who's husband doesn't irritate them? It isn't anything "bad" that he is doing. He just knows how to push my buttons, and so he does it...CONSTANTLY! He knows I don't get mad, I just get flustered. Gotta love that about him!

Addison just turned 5! I can't believe it! I remember everything about my pregnancy with her, and my labor. It was kinda fun going back and thinking about that again. She is loving school.

Logan is just Logan. He is on a movie frenzy here lately. He started out watching Cars 3 times a day, then he moved on to Happy Feet. Now, he is on a Kung Fu Panda fit. Gotta love him.

Kamryn, is my difficult child right now. I think she is teething. She is incredibly fussy. Medicine calms her down. She is eating us out of house and home. It is ridiculous!

Me, I am fine. There are alot of things going on in my life. Most I choose to ignore, because if I dwell on the bad (people or situations) I will just get stressed out and hate everything. I choose to live in the moment and enjoy the good things. I know I have to "deal" with the bad things, eventually, but right now, I just ignore. It is easier. I couldn't get through the day to day dealings of bad things without my husband. He is always there to remind me to "not worry and don't care." I sure to love him. He keeps me very balanced. He pulls me back down to earth when I just float away thinking about the terrible things. We had a seminar at church last Sunday and that was the BEST Sunday I have had in a long time. We were at church from 9:30 until 2!! I loved it. I almost wish every day could be that wonderful, but I know that isn't reality. We learned how most churches go wrong and how people fail is because they aren't giving God all the glory. People make everything about them, and it shouldn't be that way, it should all be about God. He didn't just send His Son to die on the cross to save us from our sins. He sent His Son to die on the cross to save us from our sins to give Him all the Glory. The last part just always gets lost in translation. It is truly difficult to stop making everything about us. But I am trying to remember every day to give God the Glory and to stop making it all about me. Anyways, Great times. That is really all for now. Don't have much else to say.