A New year, a New me??

Well, things this past week have been stressful, to say the least. I went to the dr and had lost even more weight (9lbs in a month) and so he told me that he wanted to see me in 2 weeks and if I hadn't gained any weight, he would put me in the hospital. Well, that scared me to death. I don't want to go in the hospital until I have the baby! I have been trying to eat as much as possible, and up until yesterday, I was still losing weight . I lost about 5 more lbs this past week, and then I weighed today and I had gained 1.5 lbs!! So exciting. I never thought I would get excited about gaining weight, but I am!!! I don't want a hospital stay.

I do believe my stress level has been part of the reason I can't gain weight. This weekend, I didn't have any stress, we had a relaxing weekend just spending time with the kids. However, today the stress is back, I am trying my hardest to not let things bother me, but I take everything to heart and I am finding that very difficult. However, today, a verse my pastor used came to mind and it was "Make every effort to live in peace with all men and to be holy, without holiness no one will see the Lord." Hebrews 12:14. So, today when something has come up that just really frustrated me and I wanted to yell, scream, say mean things, and get revenge, I have thought of this verse and it has calmed me down and I have held my tongue so I wouldn't say anything that would hurt anyone or make anyone think badly of me. It isn't that I want to please everyone, but I want to please God, God wants me to be holy and He wants me to set an example of what a Christian is. So, here's to a new me..I am still the same person, but I am chosing to watch what I say and do around others. I might still get mad about something and rant and rave about it at home, but hopefully by chosing to not get mad in "public" or say something that would hurt someone, hopefully they will see that there is a God out there and He is the only way to true happiness. Make sense?? It sure does in my mind.

So, we are all doing alright around here, no major sicknesses or anything...and we also found out the gender of our baby.......it's a BOY!!!! we are very excited!!!

Happy New Year

Well, I'm pretty optimistic that this year will hold alot in store. I am also optimistic that we will have some pretty fantastic moments. 2009 went out and I was so glad to see this year pass. We had some pretty trying times this past year, and all I can say is it can only get better from here. I am very happy to forget most all that happened in 2009 and try to keep that junk from happening this year.

Some exciting things are going to happen this year, I'm not sure what order everything will happen in, but I am positive on one thing...we will be welcoming Baby Buckner #4 into our family in July! We are so excited to not only welcome this child into our lives, but we are very honored that God chose us to be parents once more!!

I know some people aren't thrilled at the fact that we are having ANOTHER baby, but you know what? I DON'T CARE. It is not your life, you don't have to raise the child, you don't have to provide for the child, you don't have to have anything to do with the child if you don't want. I won't lose any sleep over it. I am the one chosen to raise this child and I couldn't be more thrilled!

Anyways, I have made a few new years resolutions, nothing HUGE, like losing weight or anything like that, because, well, being pregnant is not the best time to lose weight.

Well, life right now is pretty great. We enjoy spending time together just us as a family. If we aren't at home together, we are usually at church. There isn't any place we would rather be. I am very excited to raise another child to love the Lord as much as we do! We have a great church home and have made some of the greatest friends along the way. I know that God is working in us each and every day and couldn't be any happier. We recently took the kids to the Salvation Army for the Children's Department mission of Feeding the homeless. Yes, the roads were terrible, but we ventured out at 5AM and as an adult, I have never seen anything quite like it. Walking into the Salvation army it was person upon person trying to stay warm from the cold. We got to set everything up to welcome the homeless for a hot meal. We involved the kids any way we could. They got to see first hand, mommy and daddy helping others. The kids absolutely loved it. They loved helping others and them being there was a blessing to others because they were able to see that so many people care for them when they feel like they have nothing.

Anyways, We still have clean up to do from the holidays. School starts back up tomorrow. I better start getting everything together!

Updates..

Well, blogging has definitely taken a backseat to, well, life. We are staying pretty busy these days. Addison is still loving school, I just wish that I didn't have to walk her in everyday because these mornings are getting pretty chilly. I know that soon she won't want me to walk her in, so I do cherish our walks.

The kids have been practicing for their Christmas play at church. They do love our church!

The husband is back in school. I am very proud of him for going back (again) and pursuing something that makes him happy. I am even loving typing up his homework for him =) I actually get to do something "adult" for a bit. I spend the majority of my time taking care of the kids and house, that taking time out to help my husband is very rewarding. He is pursing a BS in Ministry and Leadership. Where God's road may take us, I don't know, but we are looking forward to the journey.

Umm...Not much else is new. The kiddos are enjoying life, we are enjoying life...nothing too exciting!

I hope everyone had a safe and Happy Halloween! I know we sure did!!

Diapers???

What a title to a post. Diapers. What does that have to do with anything? Well, I have discovered a new favorite diaper. With only 1 left in diapers, it is a little too late, but oh well. Usually I use the Babies r us brand Especially for Baby...They are very durable and don't leak. A big plus, they are soo inexpensive. Well, a sweet lady at church on Sunday brought me a coupon for the Target brand diapers, so we got some. I think they are very comparable to the Especially for Baby brand. I have not had any problems with them at all. I found a few stray Pampers around the house and used those a few days, and I will never do that again. Kamryn woke up every day, soaking wet with the gel falling out of the diaper. Not fun. So, Babies r us or Target? Target is closer, I will probably stick with those until Kamryn is potty trained..which will most likely be a while, because, face it..Kids these days are rarely potty trained by age 2. Anyways...that's it on diapers.

Life right now is wonderful. I love my husband dearly. He amazes me every day! Oh yeah, he irritates me every day too. Who's husband doesn't irritate them? It isn't anything "bad" that he is doing. He just knows how to push my buttons, and so he does it...CONSTANTLY! He knows I don't get mad, I just get flustered. Gotta love that about him!

Addison just turned 5! I can't believe it! I remember everything about my pregnancy with her, and my labor. It was kinda fun going back and thinking about that again. She is loving school.

Logan is just Logan. He is on a movie frenzy here lately. He started out watching Cars 3 times a day, then he moved on to Happy Feet. Now, he is on a Kung Fu Panda fit. Gotta love him.

Kamryn, is my difficult child right now. I think she is teething. She is incredibly fussy. Medicine calms her down. She is eating us out of house and home. It is ridiculous!

Me, I am fine. There are alot of things going on in my life. Most I choose to ignore, because if I dwell on the bad (people or situations) I will just get stressed out and hate everything. I choose to live in the moment and enjoy the good things. I know I have to "deal" with the bad things, eventually, but right now, I just ignore. It is easier. I couldn't get through the day to day dealings of bad things without my husband. He is always there to remind me to "not worry and don't care." I sure to love him. He keeps me very balanced. He pulls me back down to earth when I just float away thinking about the terrible things. We had a seminar at church last Sunday and that was the BEST Sunday I have had in a long time. We were at church from 9:30 until 2!! I loved it. I almost wish every day could be that wonderful, but I know that isn't reality. We learned how most churches go wrong and how people fail is because they aren't giving God all the glory. People make everything about them, and it shouldn't be that way, it should all be about God. He didn't just send His Son to die on the cross to save us from our sins. He sent His Son to die on the cross to save us from our sins to give Him all the Glory. The last part just always gets lost in translation. It is truly difficult to stop making everything about us. But I am trying to remember every day to give God the Glory and to stop making it all about me. Anyways, Great times. That is really all for now. Don't have much else to say.

Oh, What a day!

Well, today just stinks...The husband left around noon to go out of town to work. I sure do miss him when he isn't here. As much as he just lays around on the couch, you wouldn't think I would notice he was gone, but I really do notice because my work around the house doubles. I know he will be back tomorrow night, but I just miss him like crazy already!

Everything is going great. My headaches are, for the most part, gone!!

Not really anything new to say, except that I am getting really REALLY irritated. I could care less if these people know who they are or not, but seriously GROW UP.

Anyways, with all of that aside, it is time to get Kamryn out of bed, and fix some dinner (Yay for frozen pizzas!) and get the kids in bed...I am about ready to collapse!

So, with that being said...bye...maybe I can find something interesting to post soon...

oh..where to begin??

Well, These last few weeks have been crazy. Addison started school last week and absolutely loves it. She begs to go every day and doesn't understand why she can't go on the weekends. She wanted to go all day, but the 4-year old program is only 1/2 a day. It has been a success so far.

Logan is hooked on Cars..he watches it at least once a day, sometimes more.

Kamryn is growing...

The husband has me hooked on Farm town on Facebook. It drives me nuts that I am so into it, but my husband has successfully turned me into himself, so why wouldn't I like it?

This is a short post, I have to go work on my homework for Bible Study even though it was cancelled tonight. Maybe one day soon I can write more. Off to tend the farm and work on my homework. =)

Tolerance

While every person HAS to tolerate something on a daily basis. I believe I have met my tolerance quota for the rest of my life! Here in the last month or so, I believe I have been very tolerant to some things that have gone on. While I'm not here to point fingers or name names (is that the same thing?) I just want to prove a point.

I have some HUGE pet peeves of mine. Most of them, I can do nothing about, except to some degree, tolerate it, and then complain about it =)

1. Disrespectful people. While I am sure I have been disrespectful at some times, I believe that I tolerate this one way to much. I usually just let what is said roll off my back and I ignore it. However, when someone is just straight up disrespectful to my children, or to me about my children, I can no longer tolerate it anymore. If I feel like I have been disrespectful, I apologize for it. I know I have been disrespectful when I feel guilty about it. So, yeah, I'm not saying I have never been disrespectful, but when I am, I apologize. If you want to be disrespectful to me, then leave me alone...and get out of my life.

2. People who say one thing and do another, especially when it is to cover their rear end. I try to be the person who is true to my word. If I'm not, that makes me a liar, and I don't like that. I don't want to be a liar and completely have someone put all of their trust in me, just to have me let them down. which brings me to...

3. People who let others down on a daily basis. I have had my share of this in my lifetime. Whether it be friends or family. I am the type of person that when I am told something, I get all excited and pepped up, and usually I am the one being let down. It doesn't feel good.

3. Driving. Yes, I dislike driving. I think it is that everyone thinks they are the only person on the road and the only thing that matters is that they get to their destination as fast as possible, with complete disregard for anyone else. It is for this reason I usually only drive to church, and the store.

4. People proving me wrong, on a daily basis. This one isn't so much of a pet peeve as it is an annoyance. My husband is the best at this. However, when he does prove me wrong, I usually deserve to be made fun of and we usually have a good laugh. But seriously, who likes being proved wrong?

5. Talking to someone on the phone, and in the middle of your conversation they just start talking to someone else without saying "hold on a minute." enough said...

6. Not having any privacy what so ever. I know this is a price you have to pay when it comes to having kids, but seriously, I would like to change my clothes every once in a while without someone walking in and trying to talk to me.

7. Being told something so completely ridiculous about myself, that I just have to say "What???" I mean, seriously...why on earth would anyone tell someone else, "Oh, by the way, you are rude, you are an inconvenience, you are unappreciative, you are stupid." I'm not saying all of these things have been said about me, but seriously, When I look back at myself, I don't see myself as being rude. When I am spoken to, I speak back, just because it isn't exactly what you want to hear, doesn't mean that I am being rude. Or when I ask a question and someone says "Well, that's stupid." Seriously, I only ask because I honestly don't know, I just want an answer. I was raised in Sperry, there is a lot I don't know.

8. Being told how to live my life. I may ask for advice, that doesn't mean I am going to take it, but I do take it into consideration. I believe that my life is just that, MY LIFE. I don't think anyone should be able to tell me, "You need to live here, you don't need to have any more kids, you need to do this or that." Honestly, maybe you need to be telling yourself that stuff. I decide what is going to happen in my life (Well, with God's help) I discuss things with my husband, we make a decision based on what we want.

9. Being asked for advice and then being told that I need to just let you live your life how you want to. Come on, if you want to live your life how you want to, then don't ask for advice if you are just going to complain about it. enough said....

10. Not being able to do what I want when I want without fear of being judged. I know that I shouldn't feel this way, and that I shouldn't care what others think. But in our current situation, it is a feeling that isn't going away anytime soon. I hate feeling so uncomfortable. I wish I could go back to the days where I could walk out of my front door or in my front door, for that matter, without being judged. I want to be able to sit around and do nothing or be able to go and do something without being judged on it. But, as I know this isn't happening anytime soon, I guess I just have to suck it up and continue feeling uncomfortable.

Anyways, I do have way more pet peeves than this, but these are the ones that are bugging me alot today. I really just felt like I needed to vent on those things, as I realize the only person I can really "talk" to about this stuff is my husband, and he has heard it enough. I'm sure right now I am one of his pet peeves, but he doesn't make me feel that way. He listens (most of the time) and gives me advice, and I really try to take his advice, but it is hard for me, and it isn't my nature to be so laid back about EVERYTHING. I absolutely love my husband with all my heart, and he means everything to me. Just my little rant for today, I am going to try to get on with the rest of my day without letting any of these things bother me (Wish me luck!) We have an exciting weekend ahead, as well as an exciting next week. Lots of stuff happening! I can't wait!!!