Frustrations

To say I am frustrated is an understatement. I'm so glad that I have my husband to bring me down and helps me stay grounded. He is definitely nothing short of amazing! My frustration is with parents. Yes, I am a parent. Yes, I'm guilty of failing sometimes. I'm just appalled at how some parents treat their children. I'm know that we, as parents, don't always do the right things. I am PAINFULLY aware of that. I just don't understand how a parent that has 2 or more children can look at one child and be ecstatic at how happy that child is and look at their other children and brush them off like they don't even exist because they don't agree with that child's decisions.

I had a whole rant typed up and then decided to delete it. I'm sure that no one really cares to hear my opinion, and that's okay. I know everyone doesn't agree with me. My biggest question is, "Is it okay to acknowledge one child because of their happiness, but completely disregard another child when they are equally or even more happy?"

Anyways, I have a ton of homework to do, and even more packing and laundry and cleaning...I'm sure blogging isn't the best use of my time right now =)

Anew...

Well, it has been a while since I have blogged. I decided that since I am posting for the first time in a year, I would start fresh. New look. New title. New news.

Do we have any new news? Not really. We are just living life and loving God!

We are moving soon, to another rental. We are blessed that our landlords have a bigger house available, and they offered it to us before anyone else. It is in a better city with better schools and closer to everything we love. I told my husband that I can't get very far from a Wal-Mart or Target, and we will have both within 4 miles! Now, I just have to get to packing.

I am almost done with school!! Yay!!! I will finish school in September and have my degree in Early Childhood Education. Will I use my degree? Probably not right away. I enjoy staying at home with my kiddos! If an opportunity arises for me to go back to work, I might take it. We'll see.

Other than that, life is amazing. Kids are growing. It is hard to believe that Snowball will be 1 in less than 2 months! It just stinks that we can't have a big celebration for him like we did the others, based on the fact that getting our families to be civil and in the same place at the same time is IMPOSSIBLE!! I don't want to deal with the stress. We will just have our own party and he will enjoy it!

I will leave you today with a picture. Isn't the resemblance uncanny?? (Poor picture quality, it comes from my husband's cell phone)

March??

Well, it is March!! That means that nicer weather will be here soon, right?? I sure hope so! Since March is now here, that means that my itty bitty baby boy (well, maybe not a baby) is going to be 4 soon!!! I can't believe it!! He is such an awesome little boy! He gets to start in Bible Blast at church and won't be in the nursery! I can't believe it!! March also puts me one month closer to meeting our new baby boy! Almost 4 months left. I can't believe that either! As I am sitting here writing this, this little boy is kicking and moving like crazy!

I have started feeling better. I can eat now, and I am gaining weight. Right now I am in the middle of a respiratory thing and have been pretty sick, but I am getting better now!

Our life is just amazing right now! I couldn't ask for anything more but my husband and kids by my side! Things may get crazy at times, but they make everything worthwhile!

I really don't have much more to share. I should probably be catching up on my housework that I have let slide since I have been sick, but I really don't want to right now. Anyways, have a nice day!

A New year, a New me??

Well, things this past week have been stressful, to say the least. I went to the dr and had lost even more weight (9lbs in a month) and so he told me that he wanted to see me in 2 weeks and if I hadn't gained any weight, he would put me in the hospital. Well, that scared me to death. I don't want to go in the hospital until I have the baby! I have been trying to eat as much as possible, and up until yesterday, I was still losing weight . I lost about 5 more lbs this past week, and then I weighed today and I had gained 1.5 lbs!! So exciting. I never thought I would get excited about gaining weight, but I am!!! I don't want a hospital stay.

I do believe my stress level has been part of the reason I can't gain weight. This weekend, I didn't have any stress, we had a relaxing weekend just spending time with the kids. However, today the stress is back, I am trying my hardest to not let things bother me, but I take everything to heart and I am finding that very difficult. However, today, a verse my pastor used came to mind and it was "Make every effort to live in peace with all men and to be holy, without holiness no one will see the Lord." Hebrews 12:14. So, today when something has come up that just really frustrated me and I wanted to yell, scream, say mean things, and get revenge, I have thought of this verse and it has calmed me down and I have held my tongue so I wouldn't say anything that would hurt anyone or make anyone think badly of me. It isn't that I want to please everyone, but I want to please God, God wants me to be holy and He wants me to set an example of what a Christian is. So, here's to a new me..I am still the same person, but I am chosing to watch what I say and do around others. I might still get mad about something and rant and rave about it at home, but hopefully by chosing to not get mad in "public" or say something that would hurt someone, hopefully they will see that there is a God out there and He is the only way to true happiness. Make sense?? It sure does in my mind.

So, we are all doing alright around here, no major sicknesses or anything...and we also found out the gender of our baby.......it's a BOY!!!! we are very excited!!!

Happy New Year

Well, I'm pretty optimistic that this year will hold alot in store. I am also optimistic that we will have some pretty fantastic moments. 2009 went out and I was so glad to see this year pass. We had some pretty trying times this past year, and all I can say is it can only get better from here. I am very happy to forget most all that happened in 2009 and try to keep that junk from happening this year.

Some exciting things are going to happen this year, I'm not sure what order everything will happen in, but I am positive on one thing...we will be welcoming Baby Buckner #4 into our family in July! We are so excited to not only welcome this child into our lives, but we are very honored that God chose us to be parents once more!!

I know some people aren't thrilled at the fact that we are having ANOTHER baby, but you know what? I DON'T CARE. It is not your life, you don't have to raise the child, you don't have to provide for the child, you don't have to have anything to do with the child if you don't want. I won't lose any sleep over it. I am the one chosen to raise this child and I couldn't be more thrilled!

Anyways, I have made a few new years resolutions, nothing HUGE, like losing weight or anything like that, because, well, being pregnant is not the best time to lose weight.

Well, life right now is pretty great. We enjoy spending time together just us as a family. If we aren't at home together, we are usually at church. There isn't any place we would rather be. I am very excited to raise another child to love the Lord as much as we do! We have a great church home and have made some of the greatest friends along the way. I know that God is working in us each and every day and couldn't be any happier. We recently took the kids to the Salvation Army for the Children's Department mission of Feeding the homeless. Yes, the roads were terrible, but we ventured out at 5AM and as an adult, I have never seen anything quite like it. Walking into the Salvation army it was person upon person trying to stay warm from the cold. We got to set everything up to welcome the homeless for a hot meal. We involved the kids any way we could. They got to see first hand, mommy and daddy helping others. The kids absolutely loved it. They loved helping others and them being there was a blessing to others because they were able to see that so many people care for them when they feel like they have nothing.

Anyways, We still have clean up to do from the holidays. School starts back up tomorrow. I better start getting everything together!

Updates..

Well, blogging has definitely taken a backseat to, well, life. We are staying pretty busy these days. Addison is still loving school, I just wish that I didn't have to walk her in everyday because these mornings are getting pretty chilly. I know that soon she won't want me to walk her in, so I do cherish our walks.

The kids have been practicing for their Christmas play at church. They do love our church!

The husband is back in school. I am very proud of him for going back (again) and pursuing something that makes him happy. I am even loving typing up his homework for him =) I actually get to do something "adult" for a bit. I spend the majority of my time taking care of the kids and house, that taking time out to help my husband is very rewarding. He is pursing a BS in Ministry and Leadership. Where God's road may take us, I don't know, but we are looking forward to the journey.

Umm...Not much else is new. The kiddos are enjoying life, we are enjoying life...nothing too exciting!

I hope everyone had a safe and Happy Halloween! I know we sure did!!

Diapers???

What a title to a post. Diapers. What does that have to do with anything? Well, I have discovered a new favorite diaper. With only 1 left in diapers, it is a little too late, but oh well. Usually I use the Babies r us brand Especially for Baby...They are very durable and don't leak. A big plus, they are soo inexpensive. Well, a sweet lady at church on Sunday brought me a coupon for the Target brand diapers, so we got some. I think they are very comparable to the Especially for Baby brand. I have not had any problems with them at all. I found a few stray Pampers around the house and used those a few days, and I will never do that again. Kamryn woke up every day, soaking wet with the gel falling out of the diaper. Not fun. So, Babies r us or Target? Target is closer, I will probably stick with those until Kamryn is potty trained..which will most likely be a while, because, face it..Kids these days are rarely potty trained by age 2. Anyways...that's it on diapers.

Life right now is wonderful. I love my husband dearly. He amazes me every day! Oh yeah, he irritates me every day too. Who's husband doesn't irritate them? It isn't anything "bad" that he is doing. He just knows how to push my buttons, and so he does it...CONSTANTLY! He knows I don't get mad, I just get flustered. Gotta love that about him!

Addison just turned 5! I can't believe it! I remember everything about my pregnancy with her, and my labor. It was kinda fun going back and thinking about that again. She is loving school.

Logan is just Logan. He is on a movie frenzy here lately. He started out watching Cars 3 times a day, then he moved on to Happy Feet. Now, he is on a Kung Fu Panda fit. Gotta love him.

Kamryn, is my difficult child right now. I think she is teething. She is incredibly fussy. Medicine calms her down. She is eating us out of house and home. It is ridiculous!

Me, I am fine. There are alot of things going on in my life. Most I choose to ignore, because if I dwell on the bad (people or situations) I will just get stressed out and hate everything. I choose to live in the moment and enjoy the good things. I know I have to "deal" with the bad things, eventually, but right now, I just ignore. It is easier. I couldn't get through the day to day dealings of bad things without my husband. He is always there to remind me to "not worry and don't care." I sure to love him. He keeps me very balanced. He pulls me back down to earth when I just float away thinking about the terrible things. We had a seminar at church last Sunday and that was the BEST Sunday I have had in a long time. We were at church from 9:30 until 2!! I loved it. I almost wish every day could be that wonderful, but I know that isn't reality. We learned how most churches go wrong and how people fail is because they aren't giving God all the glory. People make everything about them, and it shouldn't be that way, it should all be about God. He didn't just send His Son to die on the cross to save us from our sins. He sent His Son to die on the cross to save us from our sins to give Him all the Glory. The last part just always gets lost in translation. It is truly difficult to stop making everything about us. But I am trying to remember every day to give God the Glory and to stop making it all about me. Anyways, Great times. That is really all for now. Don't have much else to say.

Oh, What a day!

Well, today just stinks...The husband left around noon to go out of town to work. I sure do miss him when he isn't here. As much as he just lays around on the couch, you wouldn't think I would notice he was gone, but I really do notice because my work around the house doubles. I know he will be back tomorrow night, but I just miss him like crazy already!

Everything is going great. My headaches are, for the most part, gone!!

Not really anything new to say, except that I am getting really REALLY irritated. I could care less if these people know who they are or not, but seriously GROW UP.

Anyways, with all of that aside, it is time to get Kamryn out of bed, and fix some dinner (Yay for frozen pizzas!) and get the kids in bed...I am about ready to collapse!

So, with that being said...bye...maybe I can find something interesting to post soon...

oh..where to begin??

Well, These last few weeks have been crazy. Addison started school last week and absolutely loves it. She begs to go every day and doesn't understand why she can't go on the weekends. She wanted to go all day, but the 4-year old program is only 1/2 a day. It has been a success so far.

Logan is hooked on Cars..he watches it at least once a day, sometimes more.

Kamryn is growing...

The husband has me hooked on Farm town on Facebook. It drives me nuts that I am so into it, but my husband has successfully turned me into himself, so why wouldn't I like it?

This is a short post, I have to go work on my homework for Bible Study even though it was cancelled tonight. Maybe one day soon I can write more. Off to tend the farm and work on my homework. =)

Tolerance

While every person HAS to tolerate something on a daily basis. I believe I have met my tolerance quota for the rest of my life! Here in the last month or so, I believe I have been very tolerant to some things that have gone on. While I'm not here to point fingers or name names (is that the same thing?) I just want to prove a point.

I have some HUGE pet peeves of mine. Most of them, I can do nothing about, except to some degree, tolerate it, and then complain about it =)

1. Disrespectful people. While I am sure I have been disrespectful at some times, I believe that I tolerate this one way to much. I usually just let what is said roll off my back and I ignore it. However, when someone is just straight up disrespectful to my children, or to me about my children, I can no longer tolerate it anymore. If I feel like I have been disrespectful, I apologize for it. I know I have been disrespectful when I feel guilty about it. So, yeah, I'm not saying I have never been disrespectful, but when I am, I apologize. If you want to be disrespectful to me, then leave me alone...and get out of my life.

2. People who say one thing and do another, especially when it is to cover their rear end. I try to be the person who is true to my word. If I'm not, that makes me a liar, and I don't like that. I don't want to be a liar and completely have someone put all of their trust in me, just to have me let them down. which brings me to...

3. People who let others down on a daily basis. I have had my share of this in my lifetime. Whether it be friends or family. I am the type of person that when I am told something, I get all excited and pepped up, and usually I am the one being let down. It doesn't feel good.

3. Driving. Yes, I dislike driving. I think it is that everyone thinks they are the only person on the road and the only thing that matters is that they get to their destination as fast as possible, with complete disregard for anyone else. It is for this reason I usually only drive to church, and the store.

4. People proving me wrong, on a daily basis. This one isn't so much of a pet peeve as it is an annoyance. My husband is the best at this. However, when he does prove me wrong, I usually deserve to be made fun of and we usually have a good laugh. But seriously, who likes being proved wrong?

5. Talking to someone on the phone, and in the middle of your conversation they just start talking to someone else without saying "hold on a minute." enough said...

6. Not having any privacy what so ever. I know this is a price you have to pay when it comes to having kids, but seriously, I would like to change my clothes every once in a while without someone walking in and trying to talk to me.

7. Being told something so completely ridiculous about myself, that I just have to say "What???" I mean, seriously...why on earth would anyone tell someone else, "Oh, by the way, you are rude, you are an inconvenience, you are unappreciative, you are stupid." I'm not saying all of these things have been said about me, but seriously, When I look back at myself, I don't see myself as being rude. When I am spoken to, I speak back, just because it isn't exactly what you want to hear, doesn't mean that I am being rude. Or when I ask a question and someone says "Well, that's stupid." Seriously, I only ask because I honestly don't know, I just want an answer. I was raised in Sperry, there is a lot I don't know.

8. Being told how to live my life. I may ask for advice, that doesn't mean I am going to take it, but I do take it into consideration. I believe that my life is just that, MY LIFE. I don't think anyone should be able to tell me, "You need to live here, you don't need to have any more kids, you need to do this or that." Honestly, maybe you need to be telling yourself that stuff. I decide what is going to happen in my life (Well, with God's help) I discuss things with my husband, we make a decision based on what we want.

9. Being asked for advice and then being told that I need to just let you live your life how you want to. Come on, if you want to live your life how you want to, then don't ask for advice if you are just going to complain about it. enough said....

10. Not being able to do what I want when I want without fear of being judged. I know that I shouldn't feel this way, and that I shouldn't care what others think. But in our current situation, it is a feeling that isn't going away anytime soon. I hate feeling so uncomfortable. I wish I could go back to the days where I could walk out of my front door or in my front door, for that matter, without being judged. I want to be able to sit around and do nothing or be able to go and do something without being judged on it. But, as I know this isn't happening anytime soon, I guess I just have to suck it up and continue feeling uncomfortable.

Anyways, I do have way more pet peeves than this, but these are the ones that are bugging me alot today. I really just felt like I needed to vent on those things, as I realize the only person I can really "talk" to about this stuff is my husband, and he has heard it enough. I'm sure right now I am one of his pet peeves, but he doesn't make me feel that way. He listens (most of the time) and gives me advice, and I really try to take his advice, but it is hard for me, and it isn't my nature to be so laid back about EVERYTHING. I absolutely love my husband with all my heart, and he means everything to me. Just my little rant for today, I am going to try to get on with the rest of my day without letting any of these things bother me (Wish me luck!) We have an exciting weekend ahead, as well as an exciting next week. Lots of stuff happening! I can't wait!!!

Searching and Praying.

Well, this week has gotten off to a rocky start. I have had a terrible past few weeks. I have been very discouraged and depressed. Then, I got an invite to a ladies Bible study. I asked the husband if he could manage the kids on Tuesday evenings so I could go, and he said "Of Course." So, the first night came, and I went. I was very intimidated, but I am just that type of person. It takes me a while to get warmed up. I noticed I stuck around the people I knew the best, and just stayed away from those that I didn't know. Little did I know, that one night could change the world for me. I learned so much in that one night, that I couldn't imagine how I had gone so long without this fellowship and time of learning. Well, to make a long story short, I am in love. This bible study has opened up so many doors to "what can be" in my life, instead of what I just have to accept. I don't have to accept anything that isn't a "God Idea." ( A good idea isn't always a God-idea) Anyways, last Tuesday, I had a lightbulb turn on inside my head, and I realized it was God, and he opened up new doors for me, and I am excited to get things started. However, the moment I knew what God wanted, Satan started coming in and had me second guessing God and what I was to do. I felt so discouraged. Then, I talked to one of the women in my bible study about it, and she was most encouraging to me. I am now content with what I am supposed to do, and am actually excited...Then, in comes the devil again. This week started off sooo well. I was in a great mood and great mindset, and then it was like the world was crumbling beneath me. I didn't go to bible study this past Tuesday because so much had happened, I was overwhelmed and just felt like if I were to leave "the" house it wouldn't be a great idea. So, I stayed home. Did things get better?

No.

Things went downhill from there. I spent all day yesterday with a migraine that made me so sick I didn't feel like doing a thing. I also spent the majority of the day bawling my eyes out. Fear of the unknown, and future, and present just flooded into my head and I thought that I needed to take control and figure everything out. Finally, at the end of the day (well, 5:00) I hadn't gotten anywhere, and I realized, I can't take control of a situation that I have no control over in the first place. God has the ultimate control. We came into this situation, thinking it was going to be the best choice for us, and now I realize, it wasn't a God-idea, so He hasn't blessed the situation. I understand now, what is going on. We are in this situation because we didn't pray about it first, we impulsively made a decision to go forward with it. Where has it gotten us? No where. Yes, God is present in our lives. No, He isn't making us miserable. We have to make a decision on this situation, and you can guarantee that it will be a God-idea. I will not ever make a decision like this again. At least, I hope I don't. It has not only made us miserable, but it is breaking me down. It is to the point where I just don't know what to do. I have prayed numerous times in the past day, and it is all out of my hands now. I can only follow through with what God wants for us. All of this that I have mentioned became even more evident last night, as I was doing my homework for bible study. I came to this realization last night. Before last night, I was an emotional wreck. Here are a few things my book said last night.

"Sometimes we reflect on times we tried to do something right and do it well and still think to ourselves, It should have worked! God just decided not to bless it."

"God can also bless out lives profoundly for our pure-hearted plans even when He can't, for kingdom reasons, bless our idea."

"When God doesn't appear to bless your plan to do something for Him, consider that He wants to do something for you instead. Ask Him what! Then, as He reveals it to you over time, cooperate and let Him do it! Every work of our hands that God truly blesses always originates with a specific work of His in us."

and last...

"Listen, Beloved. You aren't-nor have you ever been-a failure. Anything God has stopped you from doing for Him was only so you's be still enough to let Him first do something for you."

(Beth Moore, Anointed, Transformed, Redeemed)

I read those last night and realized that this invitation to participate in this bible study was Gods way of helping me with this situation. Not only does it help out now, it will help out in the future.

A good friend at church last night told me that she had been praying for me and my headaches the past few days, and said "I have realized that when I recognize that satan is tempting me or trying to deceive me, if I say out loud for him to leave me alone, it helps. Maybe you should try that." Those weren't her exact words, but that is my summarization of what she said.

So here it is, "Satan, GO AWAY. YOU will not win! In the Name of Jesus Christ, LEAVE ME ALONE!!"

Boy, does that ever help!

Who's Crazy????

Yeah, we all are! I discovered this while talking to my sister on the phone yesterday. Her husband kindly said that we are all crazy. I replied with "He's crazy!" Greg replied with, "It takes one to know one!" But you know, it is all true. We all have crazy tendencies. I'm sure everyone in the world has someone that thinks they are crazy. What does this have to do with my blog today? Absolutely nothing =)

Anyways, life right now in the Buckner house, is well, crazy.

Our weeks are so full, and the kids aren't even in school yet. Sundays are church days and then clean up the old house days. No, we still aren't done with that doggone house yet. We think we are finished, and then it turns out it still isn't good enough to put on the market. Am I happy about that? No. But that is a different story. Mondays, are daddy works while mommy watches the kids and then go over and work on the house. Tuesdays, Addison has gymnastics, and I have started doing a ladies Bible study, Wednesdays are church, Thursdays, Fridays and Saturdays are all work on the house days. Will it ever end? I am at the point where I think this stupid old house is never going to be on the market, because well, I assume it will never be good enough. Quite frankly, I am sick and tired of spending every free moment of our lives over at that house because it means the kids are stuck playing the Nintendo Ds while Mommy is in one room, and daddy is in another. I don't like my kids to play video games much. I think they can apply themselves in better ways, but it keeps them busy and quiet while we are working. I have not gotten to spend a free moment with my husband in quite some time. I need my husband, we need to have time to talk to one another and not just the routine "I love you, I love you toos." Yes, I guess I could not go to my ladies bible study, but then, that is one more night we would be over at that house. I still wouldn't get to spend time with my man! Life is very difficult for us right now. The transition of moving is a lot harder than I thought it would be, and we are trying our hardest to make things work, but it is proving to be very difficult. I have spent countless hours crying my eyes out because I am super stressed and angry and frustrated, and by golly, I just want to give up! But, we sacrificed a lot to be where we are at right now, some days it seems worth it, some days, it doesn't. I don't know how much longer I can take this life, but I am trying my hardest to give it all to God and let him carry me through. I have realized that I can't do it all myself, I can't walk down this road anymore. God will have to carry me the rest of the way.

Anyways, I am loving my ladies Bible study. We are doing, Anointed, Transformed, Redeemed. It is amazing. I love all the ladies that participate and I am enjoying getting to know them better. It helps to know that these ladies have my back and are more than willing to help out with anything. I love it. I can't wait to go tonight. I have aaaalllllllmmmmmoooooosssssssttttttt finished my homework. I am struggling with some things and it is proving to be very difficult.

Anyways, I think I just really needed to vent some more about that dadgum house. This might be the task that completely ruins me and breaks me. I hope not. I know that God is there, and if this situation is not at all possible, He will help me fix it or help me regroup and change our lives to go in a different direction. Whatever He choses to do, I am more than willing to go!!

Well, Mom and Grandma are on their way over here. I am looking forward to a great visit!

Moving???

Yep. We did it! We finally moved into the new house.

Yeo. We still aren't done with the old house.

As difficult as a process moving can be with 3 kids (and a husband), we made it happen. We were VERY fortunate to have a family friend come down and watch the kids for the week we were moving. That meant, I could pack, load up, unpack, go back and do it all however many times it took, without having to worry about my kids being in the way and not being able to get anything done. It took the entire week to get fully unpacked. Well, that is a lie. We aren't fully unpacked. We still have the office left, but we don't have the bookshelf we want yet, and what is the point in unpacking stuff, just to have to pack it up again?

We are loving the new house...it was a difficult transition to go from 2 full bathrooms, to 1 full bathroom and a bathroom with only a sink and bathtub. I'm not complaining, it is just "God forbid that one of the kids has to go to the bathroom while mommy or daddy is showering." These kiddos have the worst timing...so yes, I have taught Logan to pee outside! Addison doesn't understand why she can't. Anyways, I love living here. I love cleaning this house. No, I don't have pictures yet. Yes, I will take some...one day.

Kamryn is now walking...ALL OVER THE PLACE. And, she is drinking whole milk...only...the only milestone left for her, is drinking out of a cup. I can't bear to break my last baby of the bottle yet. I can't believe how she has grown. Oh yeah, she FINALLY has 2 teeth!

Logan and Addison are good. They are enjoying their playroom to the fullest. We finally got their TV hooked up and all, and so they play in there, or Logan goes into his room and plays while Addison stays in the playroom...and guess what?? NO FIGHTING!!!! That has been the greatest thing.

Well, I hear all 3 kids calling for me to get them out of bed. I don't mind doing that in this house =)

Kamryn...

Well, the dreaded day came.

Kamryn is now 1 year old! I'm pretty sad about it. She had a great birthday party. We all had a blast. Anyways, this week is Vacation Bible School at our church. Last night was the first night and it went GREAT! Addison brought her friend Kylie. They had a blast and we are ready for the rest of the week! Here are some pictures from Kamryn's big day!

Singing Happy Birthday!


Look Mom, I can eat my cake with no hands!


So happy to share her cake!

My Husband...

I absolutely, positively, without a doubt, LOVE my husband. He is amazing. He is also very lucky to have married such a tolerant, laid back wife. I don't know of many husbands who get to come home from work, and lay down on the couch and just watch tv all evening. Well, Mine does. And, he deserves it.

Anyways, enough mushiness....

Yesterday, I called my husband around 5:10, because I was getting ready to heat up the deep fryer and there wasn't any oil in it, so I wanted to find out exactly what to do, so I don't mess it up. He tells me, and we hang up. Then, about 5 or so minutes later (maybe longer) my phone rings and it is the husband. He says," I just totaled my car so I don't know what time I'll be home." I said, "What? Are you okay?" He said, "Yeah, I just totaled my car, I'm okay, I'll be able to figure something out after the cop gets out of my car." Well, the call went on and on and I finally felt like he was ok, and I was able to hang up. Then, I started bawling. Apparently, it was his fault, he rear-ended a guy, both cars were pretty messed up, but both of them were able to walk away from the accident. That doesn't happen often. Well, to make a long story short, JD had the car towed to the new house, and my father in law brought him back home. After he got inside, and before I could grill him, he took a shower, then made a few phone calls. Then, I started asking questions. One of the first things he said was...

"I am blessed."

What?!?! After a car accident, and now having no car, how can you be blessed?

He said, "I'm okay. The other guy is okay. I am blessed."

Wow. What a way to view a car accident. I'm sure I would be no less than panicked and crazy. I was no less than panicked and crazy, and I wasn't even in the other accident. But, that is my husband. Yes, he cares about the situation and the fact that our insurance will go up, and we had to get our other broken down car in working order, but he still has his faith in God, and knows he is being taken care of. He is content. He isn't worried or anything. He is calm, and content. I love him. He is definitely helping me keep my sanity. Especially with us in the middle of packing, and this crazy economy, this situation just wrecked my stress level, but my husband comes in and just eases my worries with his contentedness. (What a way to live the sermon that was preached to us on Sunday!) Anyways, I love my husband, even though he is turning me into himself. I consider myself a very lucky woman to have found my perfect mate, and to have found it in him! Anyways, too sappy?? I think so. I just made a cookie cake, so I'm gonna go eat while Logan and Kamryn are sleeping!

Whatever...

Well, this will be short, probably not sweet, and to the point. I have more errands to run. It isn't fun. (boy, that rhymes!) I'm not a happy camper. I haven't told anyone why yet. Does it matter?

No.

Does anyone care?

No.

Do I really care?

No.

I had this little thing all written out and decided not to post it. It isn't the worlds business. It is mine. And, I really could care less how much more effort I put forth. I'm done.

Now, It's back to running errands. Oh, By the way, yesterday, our sermon was about being content in every situation. Well, guess what, I'm content in this crazy twisted situation. Because why? I don't care anymore. I'm content with my life how it is. I know there will be circumstances that will come in and mess up this life I have right now, and that's okay. That is part of being content about my life. I can handle it. Anyways, more on the sermon later when I have time.

See ya!

and more packing...

Well, JD and I exercised last night... 15 minutes cardio and 15 minutes core body on My Personal Trainer...and then I did about 25 minutes on Wii Fit. I am exhausted....but I am still packing. I started on Kamryn's room. There is SO MUCH JUNK. Oh well, we are sifting through everything and throwing out stuff we don't want. Goodwill will have so much stuff once we are done. Anyways..Here is a picture or two that I promised...




well, maybe just one picture...but a really cute one!!

Packing...

Well, this weekend was great. It was LONG, but great. We spent lots of time with family, and it was fun. We were pretty much outside constantly until Monday, and we took the day off and just layed around. It was great! And, we are now packing up the house, for the big move. I have been filing EVERYTHING that hasn't been filed in the last year or 2 or 3....and we are throwing out everything that we don't use. EVERYTHING!!! I probably won't be doing much else besides packing. I haven't even had time to do Wii Fit...I have gained weight since I haven't been exercising. I have pictures...will post later...back to packing!

Dealing with Stress.

Well, these past few weeks have been hectic. We have had sick kids, and what not. Right now, the kids seem to be on the mend. The only thing they have going right now is runny noses. Thank goodness! I have been battling headaches. I think I determined last night, after I took painkillers and such, that they are tension/stress headaches. Now, only to get rid of the stress.

Not gonna happen anytime soon.

I think all people, regardless of age, race, religion, weight, height,...etc... go through stressful events. Some things are more stressful than others. Nontheless, everyone's stress affects them differently. Apparently, mine makes me sick. Seriously. Sick.

I don't want to go into details what my stress factor is right now. I just know it is there. I was so dibilitated last night by this headache, that I had to stay home from church. Believe me, I would have rather been at church, than watching American Idol. I missed church. I couldn't keep anything down, and I was confined to the couch...with Kamryn. It was an interesting night. I realized after JD and the other kids got home from church, that I wasn't looking in the right direction for relief of my stress. I remembered last Sunday, a very inspirational woman at church sang a song about God and how whatever crossroads you come to in your life He will bring you through it.

I decided to get out my Bible and look through it for some encouragement. JD came in the bedroom and said "What are you doing?" I said "Oh, just reading." He said, "Well, our devotion for today was Psalms 104, I think. You should read it. It was about cancer, It was either Psalms or Romans." So, I looked up Psalms 104. It didn't really sound like a passage for someone wanting to seek comfort for cancer would read. So I kept reading. Psalms 105. Keep reading. Psalms 106. Then I read it. Psalms 107! I read it, and reread it. This is exactly what I was looking for. Here is a bit of the passage:

(this is from Logan's Bible, because it is the closest one to me)

"O Give thanks unto the Lord, for he is good: for his mercy endureth forever..."
(it goes on to talk about some of the people and their hardships...)
" Therefore he brought down their heart with labour; they fell down, and there was none to help. Then they cried unto the Lord in their trouble, and he saved them out of their distresses. He brought them out of darkness.."
Psalms 107: 12-14

What a wonderful passage to read. Especially in my time of distress. This prompted me to rethink how I was dealing with my stress. I prayed for a little over an hour and I immediately felt better. I have always known to trust God with everything and he will provide, but it is really hard sometimes. I know through this time of hardship for us, God will provide. I don't know how, I don't know when. But I am at ease. Although thinking about the situation prompts me to worry, I just have to put the worry aside and pray to God and He will comfort me and He lets me know that everything will be okay!

Wow! What an amazing night.

3 kids or 4???

Well, my last post was about curveballs, and how I knocked them out of the park. I think the past few days have been a whirlwind of curveballs. So many, I lost count. However, this round, I was defeated.

I hate to have a defeatest attitude, but sometimes it just gets the best of me. Saturday was spent with 3 sickly kids. All 3 of them vomited in a 24 hour period. I am pretty sure it was due to allergies and drainage, because they are all okay now, they just have stuffy noses. After I didn't have ANY sleep Friday night, I had about a 15 minute nap Saturday. That didn't do much for me. I was angry Saturday night because I got in bed after 10 PM. I REALLY wanted to be in bed by like 8, however, the children wouldn't co-operate. I really didn't want to get up in the morning and get ready for church, but I did. I am so glad that I did. Our pastor had an amazing sermon. This Sunday it was short, and to the point, fire and brimstone. I LOVE it! I love his sermons because there isn't a "hidden meaning." He lays it all out for you, and gives it to you straight. I used to have a difficult time at my last church because it was like you had to look for the hidden meaning in what was NOT said. It was very confusing and very unfulfilling for me. I guess that should have been the point where I needed to move on. However, this Sunday was so refreshing for me. I know the week was going to be GREAT.

Boy, was I wrong.

Not that it has been terrible, but it hasn't been one of the better weeks. Yesterday, I had a meeting at church. It was wonderful to be away from my kids for that long...then I had to pick them up. I was glad to see them, I was not glad to have to pay to pick them up, but when you have to pay someone to watch your kids, you can't really complain. The one thing I was going to do, was apply for some jobs, however, I forgot. Maybe I can drop them off one day and go fill out these applications. I spent the majority of yesterday afternoon cleaning, and yelling, but such is the life of a mom.

Then, today comes...I have a terrible headache. No, no, not just terrible, but TERRIBLE. I had to turn of all the lights and just let the kids do whatever they pleased. Not a great idea. So, I had to turn the lights on and clean up their messes...with my headache. Then I cooked dinner. Now, the husband is home, and after everyone is done eating, I get to clean all over again. I am watching Logan lick the table clean. Anyways...the title of today's post...really has to do with my 3 children...and my husband. Do I mind having to clean up after him like I do with the other kids?? Not really, Yes, I wish he would put his dishes in the dishwasher instead of the sink, but it's okay. He works all day away from home. I don't mind cleaning up after him. Yes, I wish he would give me a hand on rough days like today, but it's okay. I am a mom, and a wife, I signed up for this job a long time ago. However, I did see on the news today that "they" (I don't know who "they" is) figured out how much a stay at home mom should make a year. I guess "they" based it on all of a mom's jobs, and a SAHM should make around $120,000 a year. I SOOOOOOO wish I got paid money for being a mom. That would be fantastic, but I will settle for hearing a "Mom, you make the best food all of the days." even on days that I just make Tuna Helper.

Tomorrow, is church. We are starting new classes for the kiddos. Addison has decided to do card making. I am helping out in card making, so we will see how that goes. Anyways...Here is a picture...or 3 =)